What If…

Lately I’ve been wondering, what if I was never meant to find the love of my life in this lifetime? What if he does not exist, and I continue to drag my feet all my days still waiting for him to magically appear out of nowhere? 

What if my soulmate has passed on, murdered or died heroically, or died too young because of a disease, before I even got the chance to meet him? Perhaps we’ll see each other again in the next lifetime, but I am left to toil for the rest of this life alone and lonely. Is it time to start buying cats? But I hate cats. I should just get myself dogs, rabbits, and capybaras…

But seriously, it is a possibility. Same way that finding the love of my life is simply a possibility and is not certain. That’s why I enjoy imagining how my my funeral will be more than imagining how I want my wedding to be. At least I’m sure my death is certain, but love? I don’t really know. 

I should start working on my Plan B, since Plan A doesn’t seem to work at all. What can I do with this beautiful life if I end up living it all alone? I want to be completely rational and at peace with my Plan B. I don’t want to feel horrible and alone and defeated even if I never find the love of my life in this lifetime. 

A world full of soulmates

I do not believe that we have just one soulmate in this world. Rather, I have come to observe that this world may be full of these soulmates – individuals who are related to some part of your being from sometime in your cosmic history. We are all stardust, remember? And perhaps parts of us came from the same stars…

What are soulmates? There is a certain comfort when meeting and being with a soulmate. People meet and are effortlessly drawn to each other despite initially being strangers. Despite the absence of an apparent shared world or experience, they still relate to and understand each other at a deeper level. Perhaps they already knew each other in their past lives, and thus they are part of each other from before.

There is a certain joy that echoes in our hearts whenever we chance upon a soulmate. And yet we have to learn to realize and accept that not all of them will stay in our lives a long time. Sometimes you get a chance to spend half of your life with them, but sometimes you just find them to spend half a day together and never to meet again (at least in this lifetime).

Soulmates don’t necessarily need to be the love of your life, although it would be nice to have a love that is also your soulmate. Soulmates can also be your friends, your teachers, your colleagues, or people you meet along the way. Try to tune in more carefully to the different people that surround you, and you’ll probably realize who among all your different relations are actually one of your soulmates.