May day eve

What do you do if you already know who you’ll end up with, but it’s not yet meant to happen at present time? It’s something that causes much unease, but there’s nothing much you can do. You can’t influence things to happen before they’re meant to, and at the same time you’ve got no power to prevent it from happening.

How do you keep quiet and relax? How can you pretend you know nothing? How can you possibly live the rest of your life without telling anyone else what you know and feel deep inside, about the biggest puzzle piece in your life that’s not meant to fall in to place yet?

It’s a most wonderful feeling, at the same time a horrible torture to be face-to-face with the one who is meant to be the love of your life but he doesn’t know it yet. And you can’t do anything about it. 

If you have a choice, don’t find out. Don’t go in front of that mirror with a single candle light this May day eve. Don’t ask for a sign, for an assurance. It’s far better not knowing. 

(If you’re curious, here’s a link to May Day Eve – short story by Nick Joaquin. This writeup is not exactly about that story, but has a strong reference to it.)

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Isang gabi pa (tula paminsan-minsan…)

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Hanggang sumibol sa langit
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Hayaan mo akong umasa
Na siguro ako’y iyong isipin
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Hayaan mo akong limutin
Itong bugso ng damdamin
Nawa’y tumigil nang umasa
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