It sucks to be me

What should have been the shortest work week for this year has been the longest for us so far. Had to work half-day on a holiday last Tuesday. Had to drive for two hours going to work, spent ten hours of running around (and rolling and crawling around) NBC tent, worked three hours overtime in the office, and spent another 1.5 hours driving home yesterday. Spent more than 12 hours at NBC tent today for the same event. And we still have another workday tomorrow.

Amidst all this stress, there is one album I listen to that would just instantly cheer me up and give me a better perspective of the situation. Avenue Q soundtrack.

A friend gave me a copy of the soundtrack even before I was able to watch the play myself. Avenue Q is a puppet play that is a parody of the Sesame Street series, with very similar characters and songs as lively. The biggest difference is that Avenue Q tackles a lot of the issues of 20-ish and 30-ish people. I could list a number of quarter life issues they have dealt with, but that might go on and on and never end. Luckily, I was able to watch the play when they had their run here in Manila, with the Filipino cast. Really gave me an appreciation of the stage in life that I am in right now. And yet, I would never tire of listening to their soundtrack when I am feeling down and need a little pepping up.

Intrigued? Can’t share the actual album here, but you can just search for it. Here are some of the titles of songs in the album, so that you will have an idea of the wild and crazy things that they were singing about:

  • It sucks to be me
  • If you were gay
  • Purpose
  • Everyone’s a little bit racist
  • The internet is for porn (my favorite!)
  • You can be as loud as the hell you want
  • There’s a fine, fine line
  • There is life outside your apartment
  • The more you ruv someone (that’s not a typo)
  • Schadenfreude
  • I wish I could go back to college
  • For now (the best song to listen to if you need a better perspective)

I highly recommend you to listen to the album if you haven’t heard it yet. Seriously, if you think you’re having a quarter life crisis, listen to this album. You may not find the solutions to your problems, but at least this will cheer you up a little bit.

I would appreciate feedback if you like / hate / adore / despise or feel anything strongly (or even weakly) about the Avenue Q album. Just drop a comment or send me an email. Thanks lots!


Dancing is my passion. I fell in love with dance during an Alternative Classroom Learning Experience (ACLE) on Streetdance way back in 1st year college. Because of this, I took both basic and advance street dance PE classes. I auditioned and almost joined UP Street Dance Club, but the truckload of academics got in the way. I joined dance competitions with the organization I belonged to in engineering. I danced on several events for YFC based in UP Diliman.

Well, I really do love dancing, but a lot of things have kept me from it these past few years. And when I started working back in 2007, I couldn’t find the time to dance again, save for the occasions I had to dance or choreograph for performances during office Christmas parties. But of course that kind of dance is way simpler than what I used to do in college.

Work and life kind of got in the way. Of course, I’ve always wanted to go back to my love. Even during the dry times, I knew I was still in love with dance. I move at the mere sound of a groovy music. Sometime when I am alone, I even dance to imaginary music. I couldn’t take it out of my system.

Imagine my joy when I found a chance to attend dance classes this summer, under the instruction of one of my street dance coach from early college days.

It wasn’t a walk in the park. I worked in Taguig from 9am to 6pm and drove all the way to the dance studio in Quezon City in time for my 7pm class, twice a week. I started attending the classes on my own, with no friends to accompany me. All my classmates were at least 5 years younger than me, and some maybe 10 years younger. It wasn’t a basic dance class. I had a hard time going back to the level that they were dancing with. I wasn’t in good condition because I haven’t been really dancing these past few years. I had to catch up on so much, and I had to do it fast.

There was a bit of discouragement in my heart. It was difficult to manage time and schedules. I also felt like I didn’t belong anymore, that I couldn’t dance well anymore, and it was so hard to catch up. And yet I persevered, and continued on. Passion has a knack for driving you beyond your normal limits.

I know I’m not as good as my much younger classmates in dance, but I know that I was already able to push myself to dance to a tolerable, if not completely satisfying level. And I thank my coach so much for the patience that he has for me. I do hope I deliver a decent performance during the dance recital on Sunday.

And I do hope I could continue dancing, one way or another.