“Don’t ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive, and go do it. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive.”
― Howard Thurman
I go through phases. Been through a stoic state for quite some time. Days go through like clockwork of things that need to get done and need to happen. My “adventures” were adventures of other people that I only ride along with, or serendipitous incidents, or things that I have forced myself to participate in and enjoy. A steady boring cruising through life for the past few months. But how I long to come out of it soon. I’m slowly feeling like someway somehow I’m on the way to coming alive again.
Humming music, singing songs in my head through lull moments – it may seem a simple thing, but it’s somehow a significant change for me. Music is a piece of my soul, and a piece of my soul is starting to speak to me again.
I crave for more colors, more glitter, more bling to cover myself with. I crave to garb myself in nice clothes. I want to look beautiful, to feel beautiful. It matters to me again.
I miss that feeling, that passionate aliveness. I’m not there yet, but I’m longing to be closer to it again.
“I did not know I was on a search for passionate aliveness. I only knew I was lonely and lost and that something was drawing me deeper beneath the surface of my life in search of meaning. There is a hunger in people to go to those deep depths; to know that our lives are sacred; that our hearts are truly capable of love. It is a yearning to be all the we can be. A longing for what is real.”
― Anne Hillman, The Dancing Animal Woman