Oh, how I wish I could completely say NO to procrastination… but however strong the desire to, the mind has its weaknesses.
Last night I just finished a task that I was supposed to spend time on and accomplish before the end of the first quarter of this year. It’s already the third quarter of the year. A lot of things have already overtaken it. Why have I wasted half a year and not do this? In the range of my priorities, it is extremely important, but the urgency is quite relative. I’ve put it off for so many other things, so many distractions, only spending maybe 2%-5% of the total time I could have spent on it. I could have finished it way back in March. But my subconscious was always giving me a reason not to do it:
- “It’s the weekend, I need to rest because the workweek has been so tiring and stressful. I’ll just do it next week.”
- “I’ve got a headache.”
- “Too busy at work.”
- “I’m preparing for a big transition in life and I’m too distracted with this, I’ll just deal with that after the transition.”
So here I am. Celebrating that finally I have finished what I needed to finish. Still struggling to push myself to actually do it, even after I’m done with the “transition” I was talking about.
Well aside from that, there is the exercise, the diet, the other creative and social things that I intend to do and have been putting off all the time. I’m slowly trying to accomplish them now, one by one. Bit by bit. I’m still trying to find a way to up my motivation and keep it high. But at the very least, I have a little more time to start working on these things. I need to tell myself that I have to always make time for this, even in the busiest of my life. No doubt my life will become busier and busier in the coming weeks and months of my life. I have to make sure that my busy life also include all of these other important parts of my life – my physical well-being, social life, creativity and innovation, learning, and my building blocks for the future that I envision.